Dual personality…..!!! Yes, I was in 6th
std when I heard this word for the first time… from my all-time favourite actor
Mohanlal… It was a scene in the movie Manichithrathazhu..(The movie got remaked
later into Hindi as “Bhool Bhulayya”.)
It was also in my 6th
std that Rajetan brought the first TV to home. We (my brothers and me) started
sitting in front the 21” BPL CRT box all day irrespective of the language of
the program as it was the first visual entertainer for us. (The only kind of
thing we had before was a National tape recorder which was also brought by
Rajetan.) On one of those days it
happened…!!! We watched cricket for the first time.
It was something new to us…but we absorbed
it completely within 2-3 matches.
Then
came 1996 cricket world cup.
I
saw a short man walking into the field as Indian opener. I witnessed his
Innings with my mouths open. His 127 not out gave India a victorious start and it
gifted me an ailment. Yes…there started my cricket days..(To be honest, Sachin
days!!!!)
We played cricket in the evenings… We
made a cricket team in our village… We started calling names of Indian players each other… But I do
remember, we were reluctant to call one name.(That name sounded too heavy for
all of us to hold.)
Now…Morethan 17 years passed… Today I
am watching his last test match obeying the screen placed on the ground on
which it is written “DON’T EVEN BLINK”. 17 Years….!!Yes, obviously, My age has
gone up. Things within, in and around me changed. But I am realising there is
something in me which is still the same. That is my personality dis-order.
Friends…..Now I will tell u what my
exact problem is.
I)
I
am an atheist. I don’t go to temple and I don’t pray… I had never prayed before any of my exams or
kind of things.
But,
the very moment Sachin comes to crease to face a ball I start praying to God
for a long Innings of him.
II)
I
am happy with my life. I am fully satisfied with whatever have happened in my life.
But,
I can never get satisfied with a Sachin Innings. I always needed more, more and
more from him..(Just like a triple century in onedays, 500 runs in a test innings,
centuries in all the matches kind of stuff…!!!!)
III) I am selfish. I always want to think
about myself. I always want everything good to be there with me.
But, when I see him
batting I always forget myself and everything around me. I want everything good
to happen to him.
IV)
I
don’t get addicted to anything.
But,
I have the habit of watching his innings again and again. (I think it is kind
of addiction, isn,t it?)
V)
I
am workaholic.
But,
I used to bunk my office to watch him batting.
VI)
I
don’t want anything bad to happen to anybody.
But
I always wanted other batsmen to get out to see his batting.
Yes,
this is my problem. These digressions from my character are my problem. I have been
suffering from this for the last Seventeen years.
I
think here is the end. My ailment will be cured without Dr.Sunny as Sachin days
came to an end. (Yes, obviously…my cricket days…...)!!!
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